Learning That Life Can Suck
As a child, we're told that we can do and be anything we want, but no one told us how crappy it's going to be. It's all sunshine and flowers and planning out your perfect life until you realize how much work it's about to be. You realize that going to interviews and getting rejected is not fun and getting your "dream life" isn't going to be as easy as grandma made it seem.
Over these past few months, my life has been a downwards spiral into confusion and depression. I graduated from college in April and since then, I've realized that I have no idea what I'm doing. Not only do I not know what I'm doing, I don't know what I want to be doing. I thought that those four years of college would give me some insight into what I wanted to do with my life, but somehow, I'm even more confused than I was at the beginning.
To be completely honest, I've gotten through much of my life just barely doing what I needed to do. After college, life isn't like that. You can't just barely work to get what you want. You have to work everyday towards what your vision is. Truly, this was a slap in the face for me and I'm not ashamed to admit it. I was not prepared for the harsh realities that I've been faced with and, to be even more honest, I haven't even had to deal with anything that bad. Most of it is in my own mind. But, I'm not going to let these hardships and harsh realities kill the dreamer in me because I know that's the only way my dreams will come true.
Life is hard and most days you might be wondering why you even try, but if you continue to dream and work towards making that dream a reality, one day you'll wake up and realize that it was all worth it. For example, the other day I went on a hike and the first part of it was completely uphill and I was struggling to get in a breath, but once at the top, it was one of the best hikes I've had. Those 15 minutes of uphill battle were completely worth the beautiful hour I got to spend out in nature. The point is, it will all be worth it.
If there's something that you love doing, do it. And if you need to work another job while you do it, that's okay too. Don't give up on your dreams just because it's hard. You'll never be able to escape the suffering of life, but it'll only make living for those good moments even more worth it. Suffering and happiness are two sides of the same coin and until you realize that, you'll always be giving up on the things that you think are too hard. This is what I've learned so far and I still have a very long way to go, but I know it'll all be okay in the end.
Peace.
-S.U.
Over these past few months, my life has been a downwards spiral into confusion and depression. I graduated from college in April and since then, I've realized that I have no idea what I'm doing. Not only do I not know what I'm doing, I don't know what I want to be doing. I thought that those four years of college would give me some insight into what I wanted to do with my life, but somehow, I'm even more confused than I was at the beginning.
To be completely honest, I've gotten through much of my life just barely doing what I needed to do. After college, life isn't like that. You can't just barely work to get what you want. You have to work everyday towards what your vision is. Truly, this was a slap in the face for me and I'm not ashamed to admit it. I was not prepared for the harsh realities that I've been faced with and, to be even more honest, I haven't even had to deal with anything that bad. Most of it is in my own mind. But, I'm not going to let these hardships and harsh realities kill the dreamer in me because I know that's the only way my dreams will come true.
Life is hard and most days you might be wondering why you even try, but if you continue to dream and work towards making that dream a reality, one day you'll wake up and realize that it was all worth it. For example, the other day I went on a hike and the first part of it was completely uphill and I was struggling to get in a breath, but once at the top, it was one of the best hikes I've had. Those 15 minutes of uphill battle were completely worth the beautiful hour I got to spend out in nature. The point is, it will all be worth it.
If there's something that you love doing, do it. And if you need to work another job while you do it, that's okay too. Don't give up on your dreams just because it's hard. You'll never be able to escape the suffering of life, but it'll only make living for those good moments even more worth it. Suffering and happiness are two sides of the same coin and until you realize that, you'll always be giving up on the things that you think are too hard. This is what I've learned so far and I still have a very long way to go, but I know it'll all be okay in the end.
Peace.
-S.U.
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